The Lauren Messiah Love Your Body Challenge day three is about looking in the mirror, really look and say what you see and how it makes you feel.
I have really struggled with this and spent hours trying to write something but not really knowing where to start. I still don’t quite know how to start this, but here goes.
For me, looking in the mirror has never been such a big deal. I don’t mean that in a conceited way at all, I’m not saying I look at myself and think wow who’s that fox every time I catch a glimpse. When I was younger I picked up on how much my mum hated looking at herself (I hate that she has always hated herself so much and I wish I could help her), but I think it made me curious about the power that silly piece of glass held. I remember looking at myself when I cried to see the physical effect a mental trauma had. Yes, I was a weird kid but I found it fascinating the difference an emotion can have. During a stint at dancing, looking in the mirror was so important for understanding your stance, and the same with a brief attempt at pilates classes. As soon as I moved into a house by myself I was too inspired by that episode of friends where they all try being naked around the house to not try it myself. It’s great by the way if you haven’t ever tried it. This has led me to looking in a mirror if I pass one and if there’s something that looks a bit bigger than I want it to, I pull a shape and see how weird I can make it look. The human body is too amazing to criticize. When clothes are added, they can sometimes make it look not so great, but then it’s the clothes that need to go. I’m rambling.
I may also be overthinking the challenge. Taking my brain out of the picture, when I look in the mirror I see a strong, independent woman who has grown so much in the last 5 years and is still capable of so much more self development and amazing things.
Wow. that took a ridiculous amount of trekking around the houses to come up with a pretty simple answer. This challenge has my thinking like a school girl after an exam, Was that the right answer? I don’t think there can be a right answer to learning to love yourself, but then what do I know?